joel: i can’t see anything that i don’t like about you.
clem: but you will. but you will, you know, you will think of things. and i’ll get bored with you and feel trapped because that’s what happens with me.
“Life is what you make it.”
I am so horribly offended when people say this to me. It makes my fucking illness silenced and trivialised. NO. For me and people like me, life is not what I fucking make it. It’s often very much out of my fucking control. I can’t just force myself to be happy, you…
for real though, i hate this shit. i know you probably think that you are helping me, and you say it because you care, but i am not depressed because i “don’t think positively enough.”
you know why i am depressed? because i have a chemical imbalance in my brain. okay? thinking positively is not going to magically balance out the chemicals, okay? i’m sorry, they aren’t magic fucking words.
i’m not really worried about myself though. what i am actually worried about is the fact that there are people out there who may have a problem similar to mine, who are being told things like “if you just think positively everything will be okay.” because then when something goes wrong and they break down, they will think it’s their fault. and trust me, i know from experience: that just makes everything worse.
it is very important that we make a point to be more sensitive to people who may be mentally ill. we cannot tell them how to manage their illnesses when we don’t know what is going on in their heads.
depression is a disease and we need to stop blaming the ill for their own illness.
Agreed. It sucks too because then I feel bad like maybe I should try harder and there’s all this pressure and I just want to fucking feel something but I can’t. Depression sucks. It really does.
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The Mountain Goats — This Year
I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me.
yes.
